Man... I was just reading back in this thing and there are really some great memories in this thing. I miss that. I never have anything exciting to write anymore. Seriously, nothing ever happens anymore. I think that when grade nine finished a part of me finished too. That was the best year and this one is really sucking. I don't know why. Like I end up taking this bus home alone because Laura walks and there's no more drama (yet), and all old friends have all gone to ufa. Or they just left. Work is taking up my time too. And over the summer me and Paul have gotten so much closer than I thought possible. But I can't post our talks in here, those aren't anyone's business. But back to the boringness... I have no New Year's plans. My parents won't let me go with Amy because they don't know her friends and it's across the city, they'd have no way of contacting me all night. And Sophie wants me to go skating with everyone... I'm guessing her Nicole Ana Kyle Justin Alex and Shannon. But things are different with them. I don't really know Ana Kyle or Alex. And not to be mean but I'd rather not go skating with them, for one thing I hate skating! Also I just don't want to hang out with them. Like after school or even at lunch. Am I a hermit or what? I was listening to Billy Idol this morning and he brings back memories. My reason for everything isn't even at school. You know that person you'd have fun obsessing over even though you don't actually want them? Well, he's gone so that just makes everything even more pointless. I need a ... I don't know what I need. A drink. That's right. *is gone*